Saturday, January 7, 2012

yesterday was the worst

yesterday's evening, aku and my le friends buat a study group at school. they're tihah, piqa, baya, intan, the two guys. i don't know who's the planner but i been invited by baya. actually, to be truth, i didn't even want to go there cos time tuh i was so mengantuk, so malas, so bosan and so lifeless. but for intan and pmr, aku pergi. aku and intan were the first gals who arrived.

saw the two guys chatting with their friends, we without thinking of disturbing them just walk away and find other gals who arrived. 

after walked tak sampai two minutes, we heard someone shouted our name and its seems like baya and piqa. yes, we found them at pondok near the badminton court. we greeted hello hello and salam salam ceh, tak salam pun.

then, we're talking bout something that i don't remember for five minutes then we saw tihah riding her motor ke scooter apa entah and i was like


"tihah wey tihah, eh straight gila tihah bawak motor." 

kami still tak bergerak, we waited tihah to come to us. but then, she came, but she came with the two guys. without my relization, my histeria came out again cos one of the two guys is my crush. look, my histeria will come out when i got nervous and see my crush wear not-the-pss-shirt. then i start to


"omg omg aku nak balik aku nak balik"

and cry without tears, meaning cry of nervous.

without wasting time, tihah go first with the two guys to canteen. and i was like

"good, be cool nini. now let's back home"

at that time i officially don't have a reason to be stay. niat to study melayang, the only in my mind is him. 

baya, intan, piqa forced aku to stay. reason for pmr. baya said 


"ko nak berjaya dalam pmr tak?"

of cos lah aku nak but the prob is niat belajar tu dah melayang, tak tahu melayang kat mana benda tuh. but at last, for the reason of pmr, aku stay but hello? histeria i belum habis lagi wokk. we continue with walking to the canteen. beep. aku skip bab ni.

until we sit at round table yang ada kat tengah bangunan sekolah. redup sikit. and start lah our study group, aku tak boleh study so aku pun buatlah homework math. baya brought netbook so apa lagi? animax songs lah. dengar dengar. and aku nampak tihah punya face berubah, she don't like the songs. haha be cool tihah be cool.

after enjoying le songs, dengan cekapnya macam mata helang, i saw 'him' walking to us. and so he talking with tihah dengan gals lain blahblahblahs aku sorang je yang bisu, hanya mampu beri senyuman kepada 'him'.

 histeria makin membara after intan show her palm yang bertulis "H pandang ko" i cried but looks like i was laughing. intan, omg omg niat nak buat homework aku dah hilang. omg. then, dia blah, pergi ke canteen. tak lama selepas itu, tihah ajak kitorang pergi canteen. dia pergi ngan piqa dulu. so just left me , intan and baya.

histeria diteruskan dalam perjalanan ke canteen. nampak 'him' standing besides tihah. i dah


"wey, takpelah aku nak balik dulu ah k"

baya and intan always asking why why and why? i don't why? i so am nervous. i might fell infront of him, i might  do something stupid infront of him. but again aku dikalahkan oleh ayat baya yang bersemangat waja itu.

lalala i'm walking and walking and walking and stop at le table. put my bag down. saw tihah teaching 'him' math and blah blah blah.

i tried to be cool but i can't, i can't stand hearing his beautiful voices. he makes me crazy. i can't do it. i'm running away. i left them at canteen without saying goodbye. i'm sorry, i don't want anyone to see my tears. and i so very am sorry to intan cos it's my fault she can't study with others. sorry dears. maybe i'm just to emotionall.



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